In mourning...

Why is it seems like just yesterday that you held me on ur lap?
Why is it seems like just this morning you woke me up to watch you do taichi?

How is it that the years passed so fast - and that I grew out into the world and saw you less and less with each passing year...

What happened to watching 'Justice Bao' rented from an old video store down the road that has long been demolished?
What happened to walking with you to buy hawker food from the corner shop... that has also been cleared to build a new series of shop houses?
Or the times I waited with 2nd Aunt for you to finish your MCA meetings, usually eating Ice Cream Potong...

Why does it seem so empty this morning after I heard that you have passed on... Grandma, it was raining today - and it rained since yesterday night. I don't know if it was raining back in Penang or if you would have realised that it was raining even if it did... but it was raining... it was as if the sky was doing my crying for me...

I am so glad that I took the morning to visit you and talked to you this time when I went back to Penang - it has been so long since the last time I talked to you... and I will always feel sad that you were struck down with stroke 20 years ago... I only wish you could be with me when I travelled around the world, the places I have seen and the places I know you would have loved to see - for without you all this would not have been possible and I would not be the person I am today...

Grandma - farewell and goodbye... I love you...